guess what? im NOT going to shanghai anymore!

no more ssis, no more horseriding, no more relaxation, no more o's at cheena.
not only that. my aunt and uncle are dumping me here and going ahead cause my dad doesnt wanna go.
piff. happy? sad? i guess it's both. ): (:

wanna know why? ask me. :D omg i wonder what had influenced me. 0.o
yes. im changing into a sporty girl. woohoo. (:
fine. bet it's the joke of the day. but yup, i've got this BIG FAT sporting interest. hahah. i wonder what had sparked it. woohoo. must be obs. omg. future career: obs instructor. :D haha. got this BIG sudden urge to do sports. now i regret why didnt i wanted to join hockey in sec1. haha. used to hate the sun a lot a lot ALOT. now i <3 it. oh. did you know that putting sunblock on your hair will make it turn brown? hahaha. yes stephy told me ytd. someone else told me before. i want to try it one day. (: and i'll have sporty brown hair! :D oh crap. i can feel the sporty gene popping up. okay let's see what kind of sports i want to do and like be the national player for it. haha. who knows this urge might just like come true one day. yay! and i'll be an obs instructor + national athelete in the near future. haha. daydreaming. oh well. okay. so here it goes.

i really really really want to do synchronize swimming! and ice hockey! and equestrianism! and sculling! and gymnastics! and cross-country skiing (if s'pore has that is)! and go back to my fencing days. omg i miss fencing loads! and mountain unicycling! and bungee jumping! and wakeboarding! and skydiving! and figure skating! and beach volleyball! <3

yes. i wish i can do all these! especially synchronize swimming! ice hockey! sculling! gymnastics! FENCING! shit i miss fencing. haha used to fence when i was young. loved it a lot a lot. but bahhh. stopped cause of piano. haha now that piano's over, omg i wanna wanna WANNA fence again! bleh. okays. shall stop ranting here. thanks for reading anyway. but yup, i wanna do these! all THESE. haha cause they are possible to be done in s'pore. unlike the rest which is a bit errr. but nvm i shall wait till i get into the outdoors as an obs instructor! HAHAHA (: and guess what. synchronized swimming can be done as a CCA. hahahaha i want to do that man. I WANT TO. -whine and pout like a kid- maybe they would allow fencing too? HAHA.


reward for reading till so far? haha i'll like to share with you a song i fell for recently. here it goes. enjoy!


Paint My Love - Michael Learns To Rock

From my youngest years
till this moment here
I've never seen
such a lovely queen

From the skies above
to the deepest love
I've never felt
crazy like this before

Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Been around the world
then I met you girl
It's like comming home
to a place I've known

Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Since you came into my life
the days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed

Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Paint my love
you should paint my love
it's the picture of a thousand sunsets
it's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love haha stephy is a nose-digger entertainer. WAHAHAHA. <3
love her webcam funtion. how i wish i have a webcam.
ohohoh. now that i have her nose-digging video, i shall post it on youtube! woohoo! (: -evil grin- and yes i am gonna miss the 1st brazil match of this yr's world cup. oh how nice. cause my mum say i cant stay up so late till 3am to watch in case i get sick. well technically, 3am is called freakin early. not freakin late. HAH. and i'm gonna miss the show. LOADS.

yay! (: tmr gonna watch she's the man. CANT WAIT! :D but gotta bring my sis along. so yeah. nvm. it'll be me, stephy and rachel neo. (: hahaha. she's the man! woohoo. i'm the MAN. rahh! im the MAN. (: haha retard.

i wish the hols would stay this way man. as in the playing part. not the hw part. not the "my-uncle-fevering" part. but yea. was supposed to go for some t-rex exhibit at the sci ctr today. but my uncle's sick so i dont get to do. :( nvm nvm. wait till he gets betterr.


ohoh. i cant wait to go tanning with stephy my nose-digging entertainer (: CANT WAIT.
and i miss obs. LOADS. IM BACK FROM NACLI. (:
in case you are wondering wth that is, it's national community leadership institute. HAH.
i <3 leadership camps man. big big time. omg at first i went there with a super sian attitude. thinking how unfun it would be compared to obs. yes. it's indeed unfun. but hah. at least i had some fun! :D

so yeah day1. reached there and met our trainer lim choy leng. really hyped person. together with cherilyn. hohoho. played some mr hippo travel around the world game. i <3 mr hippo and mr moomoo and mr penguin! haha. why are those soft thingy all males? 0.o oh well. the food at nacli is 5 times better than obs. had chicken rice for lunch like wth. and we ate at some air-conned dining hall. freakin shiok. woooooosh! so yeah. our bunks were great too! shared with rach lau, felissa, safa and hani! BLOSSOMING. <3 jackpotting was GREAT. :D thanks guys. so yupps had airconned bunks with personal toilet. and yes. rach spoilt the toilet door. (:

so day 2 was MAD NIGHT. was really hyper that day. played and danced like mad! each group had to like have 2 compulsory items, one dance one story and another item that is "free expression!" haha. so our group, in charge of study duty, had to like look after the bread and off light and stuff. haha it was like slackiest duty ever. at least we dont have to raise flags! (: hahaha. and yes. we had a super hilarious dance according to that axel f crazy frog song. i swear i cant dance. had some twist body, booby thingy. tried to do but suck big time lah! and got this jiggle boob action. OH NO NOT AGAIN. ): haha enterprise camp malued me last yr with boobs shaking and not this too! ): hahaha but yes. i just laughed my way though and did it! WHEEEEE~ so we had to do this BIG ROCKS story and im that eager bever that always give wrong answer in the story. fine fine. :D and for our last item we decided to do COMMERCIAL TIME! haha mixed the cadbudy chocolate, canadian pizza, gold 90fm and this nusbusiness sch-changed-to-crescent ad together to form our ADVERTISEMENT TIME! :D was really great! and oh boy. im the NACLI IDOL. together with hani wani. hahahaha. we pumped out our boobies. damn damn hilarious. :DD to that my humps song. haha. the my humps group was damn pissed that we kept making fun of their innocent actions. HAHAHAHA. and so we decided to make something more un-INNOCENT for them and they left the room to practise else where! HAHAHA. :D

so day 3 was great too! spent the last 2 nights BLOSSOMING and stuff. and JACKPOTTING. i swear jackpot was the BIGGEST BLOSSOMING event i had ever! tinktink! -sniggers- :D haha if you are in my bunk, like rach, safa, hani and felsa you will know what im talking bout! if not, bahhh! hahahaha. i doubt you people will read aniway. heh (: so day 3 had this 200 seconds challenge thingy. it was rocking gooood! had to complete this challenge thingy in the rain and haha. i was incharge of the bowling section and yea! we did it! haha not in 200 seconds but in 22 minutes. WTH. but teamwork was damn important. and yes! i bargained for b-ball players to stand at the dotted line to shoot instead of the usual line! -snigggers- thank me thank you. (: and the last part was really sad, had to write notes for everyone on this paper thingy stuck to the window. everyone gave me such nice and sweet encouragements! and we also wrote for choy and cherry. hahah. omg i miss nacli much. but i miss obs MORE.

now if you scroll to the top of this blog where i have my name, you'll notice i've added a new job to my aspirations. and that is to be an OBS INSTRUCTOR. haha. (: or just working for PA. or just like travelling round the world, climbing mountains, trekking in forests, rafting, kayaking and bleh. dont really care. i <333 the outdooors out of a sudden! shall join ODAC when i get into jc man. <3 omg i <33 this june hols. and the homework just ruin the whole thing. wah thanks ah.


so this song got stuck in my head during MAD night. i found it damn meaningful and yes, im gonna share it with you. enjoy! (:

My Love - Westlife
An empty street, an empty house
I hold inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems soo far

Chorus:
So I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue, the sea is once again... my love.
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again... my love.

I try to read, I know the work
I left them with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems soo far

So I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue, the sea is once again... my love.
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems soo far

So I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take its there
Where the skies are blue, the sea is once again... my love.
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again... my love.

Say it in a prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah),
the sea is once again my love. (oh my love)
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again.....
MY LOVE ohoh im here to add more to the previous post! yupps, realised i didnt add in the trust games and jetty jump, but besides that, it's COMPLETE. woohoo! i managed to recap the WHOLE OUTWARD BOUNS EXPERIENCE! ((: gosh. im proud of myself.

yeah so on day 2, before rock climbing, we gotta trust each other before we can do height activities yea, played some trust fall games. felt like a "bu dao wong" alot ALOT. got bounced here and there. was like sandwiched between yuexi and erika and they push me about. haha. damn fun. and one more like fall backwards into a canvas one. haha gosh im the heaviest in my group. they all couldn't catch me properly. so maluated. gahh. and one more fall forward to ring a bell one. haha that was damn hilarious. gotta do some falling call first. like canvas ready? canvas pull canvas ready. falling? fall on! haha stupid. and after that did some mini rock climbing before the REAL THING. i still can remember the stupid drill okay. but yea guess that was really required before we climb, what if fall howhowhow? so gotta trust your friend and it's like hey! there's actually someone belaying you! so you wont knock your head or smth. hahaha.
so the calls were actually like am i on belay? den no you are not, den pull pull pull until tight and you go, that's me. so it's squeeze check, pull check, instructor check. climbing? climb on! and when wanna fall, gotta say falling! and belayer will go fall on! haha damn stupid. :D

so yeah. now i shall recap on day 3, jetty jump straight when we reach camp2. omg i was so scared of jumping please. it's volunteery one. like you wanna jump den jump, if not nvm kind. i was one of the last few lah! was like so scared of jumping can! so i stood on the plank and started laughing. and guess what, i didnt close my legs while jumping. dammit. imagine how much pain i felt down there with the water pressure and everything gushing up. gahhh. i was in pain till like dinner please! so yeah. jetty jump! <3 once in a lifetime. really really loved it a lot alot ALOT. hohoho.


so there. and not to mention, we had some sea expedition talk before the sea expedition. so yeah. haha that;s my oh-so-wonderful obs experience! yes. today had some guitar enrichment thingy. wah ate the mens pill during obs to prevent mens from coming. and now i stop eating had HUGE HUGE cramps that i had to go home in between guitar. sobs. sad please. i haven even got the booklet and got to strum my guitar yet, and me and joanne gotta go home alrdy. sobs. nvm i shall like go and learn from someone in that course. maybe yasmin or grace?! *hinthint* yes. and guess what? took a cab home. 9.50. realised i didnt bring key. AHHHHHH. got stuck outside my house till like 10.30 until my sis woke up to open the door. crap. was like paining outside my door without a toilet and bed and hot water. how nice. seriously. from now on everywhere i go i better bring my keys! haha. ended up at home watching some bugs bunny vcd till 4++. haha i miss my childhood. ): HEY EVERYONE IM BACK FROM OBS. wooohoooo! (: at first i seriously thought i couldn't survive a single bit at all due to those horror stories i heard from seniors and stuff. and everyone was like it's damn fun its damn fun but i didnt believe cause i concentrated tooo much on those horrorful parts like how you gotta carry a big big big BIG bag round the jungle for 3 days and dig a hole to shit kind of story. so yeah. but im UBERLY GLAD that im in leadership! woohooo! :D at least we gotta try land and sea and leadership stuff. yupps. :D

so let me recap and give you a uberly long long long long long long LONG post. yes. like an autobiography of my life at OBS. on the first day, was whining and pouting like nuts and complaining on why obs cant be shorter. this is the LONGEST, MOST TIRING, and yet FUNNEST camp i ever had in my entire life man! so we reached sch at a superly early time like 7++ to go to punggol jetty and i found it extreamly ridiculous cause i stay near punggol. and worst still, alexis heng didnt allow me to go home from punggol when camp ends so yeah, that totally spoilt the whole of the time i had at the jetty. TSKTSK. and we played this dum dii dii dum game. damn stupid. and yes betyou are wondering why we play such games? cause the bum boat takes forever to arrive. and they only got a few boat times so gotta wait under the hot hot HOT sun. :D and yes meanwhile, we sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MISS YUEXI POKPOK! hohohoho. the whole leadership started singing! it was UBERLY COOL. (: hoped yuexi loves it. HAHA. our surprise for her worh! yesyesyes.

so when we FINALLY reached the island off singapore called PULAU UBIN, we got splitted into MANY MANY watches, ok fine not many, 4 watches for leadership. we occupied camp ONE. while the mobile side occupied camp TWO. yesyesyes, and i am in MUNSHI WATCH. hohoho, under the care of AHGONG WILFRED our oh-so-sweet instructor and together, we the 13 NUTCASES had loads of fun in the sun, sand, sea for5 whole SMACKING DAYS! ((: we the 13, sheryl, erika, jiat ru, darli, brenda, yuexi, eunice tan, eunice ong, grace, bernette, carren, jane and me! we had TRILLIONS OF FUN for the whole SMACKING FIVE DAYS ON A DESERTED ISLAND A FEW METERS OFF SINGAPORE. HAHA.

so day 1. played some ice breaker games in the hall like the knots one. gotta twist twist like shit. yes. and after that had lunch! omg lunch. the people at obs fed us like 4 meals a day, breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper. i was pouting like mad cause there wasnt any teatime. and 4 meals a day was A LOT. cause i only eat like lunch, tea, dinner. yeah. was planning to diet at obs but unfortunately they feeed NUTRITIOUS food but EEEE-YEER stuff. haha. cause i didnt like it much anyway. had the same stuff everyday! we can like predict what's for lunch and dinner. let me recite the menu. plain rice, fish/beancurd, vegetable, CHICKEN WINGS, syrup drink, soup, apple. YES. omg. we had CHICKEN WINGS EVERYDAY. felt like puking. and when i came back home my grandma cooked CHICKEN WINGS again. i so totally died. =x

so the people at obs seem to like the number 4 alot, cause we were split in our watch into 4 groups again. for rockclimbing, kayaking, rafting and navigation! haha. so on monday was kinddaf like supposed to learn how to do this stuffs, i was in KAYAKING. and like later on in the camp gotta teach our watchmates how to do these stuffs. YUPPS. <3 so we learnt how to like row the front stock, back strock, sweep stroke, stern rudder, how to capsize, how to rescue, how to carry kayak, how to get in, how to get out, how to sit properly in the kayak, how to hold the paddle properly, how to paddle. HAHAHAA. it was damn stupid.

had dinner and played some game on observation. like this is one, this is two, how much is this? and another one like this is a ding. a what? a ding. thank you. and it goes on to the next person. this is a ding. a what? a what? a ding. a ding. thank you. and the other side will start. this is a dong. a what? a dong. thank you. and pass on. this is a dong. a what? a what? a dong. a dong. thank you. HAHA. damn stupid. but i was soooooo entertained the whole night i was dingdong-ing all the way.

later on in the night had to pitch our own basha (sp?!). just this plain shelter and some ground sheet right smack in between the forest and we gotta like sleep there. HAHA. im go glad my POWERPUFF GIRLS toiletries bag acted as a pillow if not the mud floor is gonna kill me. and so many crickets were crawling around! and yuexi woke up with a dead red ant under her body. WAHAHA. it was damn damn damn hilarious. so yeah. day one over. and i learnt that whole day how to try and stop whining so much since im at pulau ubin alrdy and i cant go back home so easily. and that sleeping outdoor didnt suck that much anyway. cause we had LOADS OF FUN spraying insect repellent and learning how to light mosquito coil and pasting mosquito patches! and yeah to experience ORGANIC food which kinddaf suck and i miss miss MISSSS COKE and CHIPS SOOOOOOO MUCH around the 4th day i tell you. nearly died just thinking of it.


okay. day 2. morning climb down the hill and we had to prepare stuff! hoho breakfast was uber oily on some fried kwey teow thingy and i didnt really like it. as you see, im sorta a fussy eater. and when i dont like something i eat VERY SLOW. so for all the 5 days all the 4 meals i am ALWAYS the LAST one. and the whole world gotta wait for me. apologies my friend. :D so yeah after that MUNSHI had to be splitted into 2 mini group to go on this map compass bearing navigation thingy. haha and it was yuexi, sheryl, carren and erika's job to teach us how to do this activity! woohoo! so my minigroup had yuexi, sheryl, eunice tan, eunice ong, jiat ru and ME! yesyesyes! i so totally <3333 our minigroup! we had to roam the whole jungle for checkpoints lah! and i was so so SO proud of our group cause we managed to find like 3 out of the 4 checkpoints our whole watch managed to find in the end while the rest of the watches couldnt find any. YUPPS. so our minigroup was UBERLY ADVENTUREOUS. :D we climb steep slopes, held each other hands to get down steep slopes, run behind trees to check for hidden checkp0ints, scream "THORNS" to remind watchmates at the back that this tree had thorns, we shared water, we agar-agar based on our "OH-SO-WONDERFUL" sense of direction and managed to find checkpoints instead of checking for bearing so often and wasting so much time, and we DARED TO TRY. yes. omg i APPLAUDE EVERYONE in the minigroup for that. we wanted to search for checkpoint 7 and 9 at the top of this 60m hill and we had LOADS of trouble climbing up and stuff and in the end we couldnt find any of those two checkpoints. were DAMN DAMN DAMN DISAPPOINTED LAH! but we bonded while trying to find that stupid exit down the hill and we couldn find we even tried jumping down. HAHA DAMN HILARIOUS. so yea. kinddaf learnt that in life we make this kind of journey but the end doesnt really matter cause it's the process that really counts. and i treasure every every moment of it. ((: at least when we met with the other group and we kinddaf saw how unenthu some of the members in the other group was, sitting down, resting when we have like 2 more hours for adventure, complaining like shit and whining and bossing others around, i kinddaf pityed the other members cause they really really wanted to follow our half to climb another hill for another checkpoint! we wern't afraid of some bees or smth. since we got our ponchos anyway. YES. that's the kind of OUTWARD BOUND SPIRIT we should have anyway! just GO FOR IT LAH! why waste time sittign down bitching bout others when you can try climbing hills in UBIN for like that VERY ONE EXPERIENCE in your WHOLE LIFE TIME?! haha. really. i pityed the rest.

haha. so later in day 2 afternoon, had ROCKCLIMBING! i am so so SO PROUD of myself! i managed to climb to the top which was like 10m HIGH. and halfway through i was tired and i couldnt push myself up to step on the footing. but i TRIED. :D and in the end i DID IT! but when i touched the top, my hand was UBER WET and i SLIPPED and FELL! dammmit. but at least i reached that VERY TOP STONE for 2 SECONDS. <33 HOHOHO. felt UBERLY HIGH THAT DAY. (: and yes of course, without the help of my fellow friends and the trust i had for the belayer, i never would have climbed so far up. so thank you so much PALLY WELLYS :D and i learnt that in life we need people to like direct us and give us that PUSH to go all the way up. like it's not only a one person effort lah. all those "background" people also matter a lot A LOT to make something a success. and we shouldn't just like claim that freakin credit all by ourself cause yea i saw that happening and i felt like screaming at that person cause she was so uberly selfish that whole camp. haha i hope my bad feelings are gonna get over soon cause i only wanna remember the HAPPY STUFFS. (: at night i suggested to play games. and yes wilfred thought of this HARRY and ONE DOT and TWO DOT game. again, some people got dotted and i got blamed for suggesting the game. COMMON. we are supposed to get BONDED. like WHAT IS THIS MAN. haha but oh well. obs is suppsoed to be filled with HAPPY MEMORIES. so i shouldnt keep these stuff in my head yea. -flush them down the toilet bowl- so at the end of the day, i was TWO DOTS. :D slept in bunks that night. it was the bestest night i had so far at obs since day 1. yupps.


day 3. had RAFTING in the MORNING. learnt how to tie some funny ropes. and darli tried to tie them later that night for our clothes line! and i was helping her to cut. "hey dude" and "hey chick" is what darli loves to say. and she's FREAKIN HILARIOUS. i can just like die laughing with her around. and yes. darli TOOTHPASTE :D is my oh-so-wonderful WHISTLING PARTNER. haha. we <3 whistling "catch your wave" together during obs. :D so yeah rafting, our raft at first LOOKED okay. we thought it couldnt float. was SO SCARED lah. it was UBER UNEVEN. yes. in the end it FLOATED! except that in the end it was like the pipes were one up one down and it looked like an art piece meant for the museum! haha can name it "MUNSHI's RAFT" and display at the singapore arts museum. sure attract alot of people!

so in the afternoon it was me, bernette, eunice tan, eunice ong's turn to teach the rest kayaking! HAHAHAHA. so everthing trned out quite ok. partnered yuexi to kayak to camp two while the rest came over to camp one. yupps. they ate like never ate chicken wings before and we were whining like shit. so yeah, from then on i tried uberly hard not to complain bout the cook house food. yupyup. me and yx, we were one of the first to arrive! woosh! was damn proud of ourselves. and i <3 kayaking. outdoor cooking was FANTABULOUS too. me and carren were sharing food in that mess tin filled with canned curry chicken and mushroom, with bernette's wonderful claypot rice which turned out really good! like half the pot cannot eat of course, cause it's BURNT. but the top was okay. it turned out fantastic. HAHA yes. thanks loads bernette! (: me and carren were comparing. how her sis was at home in front of the tv, with proper lighting, sitting on chairs and table with proper plates and no insects looking out of the oh so wonderful window and asking "i wonder how is carren" and we are at some island staring into the waves that are gonna be high tide soon, eating out of a metal tin with torchlight, siting on some raincoat on the sand with loads of ants and all the bugs and insects and eee-yeer stuff and thinking bout what carren's sister is gonna say. omg it was damn hilarious. had to bury the "biodegradable" food in a hole that we had to dig near the beach. haha. i seriously think wild boars will go and get the food man. so that night again, i got pissed cause some people apparently went "im very tired" and went to sleep and not help at all and in the morning started bossing us around. gahhhhh. -flush down bad stuff down toilet bowl- so that night we slept at the camp 2 "HALL" which was this cement floor ourside the souvenior shop. haha. wilfred read us this passage, it goes like this:

ELEVEN RULES FOR BEING HUMAN
1. you will receive a body. you may like it or hate it, but i will be yours the entire period.
2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called Life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.
3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial and error: experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately "works".
4. A lesson is repeated until learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can then go on to the next lesson.
5. Learning lessons does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.
6. there is not better "here". When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7. Others are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.
8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9. Your answers lie inside you. The answers to Life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen and trust.
10. you will forget all this.
11. you can remember it whenever you want.

after that was supposed to spend some time alone to like look at camp 2 cause it apparantly was a "nice place" haha i agree cause of the super clean and super dry toilet that eunice tan brought us to so that we could have a GOOD BATH. omg i bathed for 30min. and we shared shampoo and stuff. <33 walked the jetty with erika and saw the lights of singapore city. started to miss home ABIT. yeah. and like came out with some urban development crap. was damn stupid. haha.


day 4. was the day of our sea expedition! i kayaked with waiteng! OMG IM SO SORRY DADANG FOR FLARING UP AT YOU. D: everyone was damn pissed cause our kayaks doesnt seem to be able to go straight. and at first we were damn damn damn at the back. so yeah. but our morale booosted and yups, we were in front! HAHA. and we saw a BEEEAUTIFULL FULL RAINBOW across the sky. cause apparently singapore was pouring and ubin was not and we were in the center of BOTH. so yupp, saw this RAINBOW and the rainbow caused the sea water beneath to be foamy. and under the rainbow was SHINY! like a pot of gold kind of thing. was AWESOME. never got so close to a FULL RAINBOW before. and i am uberly grateful for that every second i get to experience it. yupps. :D so sea expedition, after our LUNCH, some stupid sunblock got into my eye and yes bothof us KAYAKED back with MY EYES CLOSED. (: my dadang is AMAZING i wonder how she managed to give me directions like left, right, sweep left, sweep right kind of thing and we SURPRISINGLY ended up IN FRONT! woohoo!~ i <33 my dadang alot! and she didnt flare up or smth. and i was like the one screaming at her and yet i couldnt do anything in the end. so i felt uber guilty. so from this i learnt that teamwork is EXTREAMLY IMPORTANT. and getting pissed and fustrated cant get you anywhere. gotta be like CALM and stuff to settle stuff. just like how my dadang does stuff, we can easily row away, apart from the knocking into the kelong thingy. yeah. i really appreciate all that my dadang does. I LOVE YOU LOADS DADANG! <3 and so sorry for being so mean. D:

so day 4 didnt really end like that. we had some jigsaw puzzle challenge in the hall and everyone from leadership had to cooperate to like have the record timing. was FANTASTIC. learnt that nothing is impossible as long as we all WORK TOGETHER and to come up with a STRATEGIC PLAN. yes. HAHA.

had night walk in the end. played some hula hoop game first. yes. and once again, i was kinddaf pissed cause some people just didnt want to try out new stuff and was like delaying the whole group. really learnt that everyone is different and that we have our own freedom to make our choices. but you see, when making our decision we gotta consider the rest and stuff, like this night walk is once in a life time get to walk in the jungle kinddaf thing, so why not give it a try? why keep comflaining and shutting people up?! seriously, i think you are being plain selfish. and i learnt that we gotta think about others everytime we decide something. cause the consequences might just affect for life. so nightwalk was uberly GREAT. :D before we walked, wilfred read us this passage, trying to make us less scared. it's called "FEAR IS AN ILLUSION". and here it goes:

FEAR IS AN ILLUSION - by Michael Jordan (that basketball person)

I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot. Why? Because when you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.

Some people get frozen by that fear of failure. They get it from peers or from just thinking about the possibility of a negative results.

They might be afraid of looking bad or being embarrassed. I realized that if I was going to achieve anything in life I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it.

I don't believe you can achieve anything by being passive. I'm not thinking about anything except what I'm trying to accomplish.

Any fear is an illusion. You think something is standing in your way but nothing is really there.
What is there is an opportunity to do your best and gain some success. If it turns out my best isn't good enough, then at least I'll never be able to look back and say I was too afraid to try.

Failure always made me try harder the next time.

That's why my advice has always been to "think positive" and find fuel in any failure. Sometimes failure actually just gets you closer to where you want to be.

If I'm trying to fix a car, every time I try something that doesn't work, I'm getting closer to finding the answer.

The greatest inventions in the world had hundreds of failures before the answers were found.

I think fear sometimes comes from a lack of focus or concentration. If I had stood at the free-throw line and thought about 10 million people watching me on the other side of the camera lens, I couldn't have made anything.

So I mentally tried to put myself in a familiar place. I thought about all those times I show free throws in practice and went through the same motion, the same technique that I had used thousands of times.

You forget about the outcome. You know you are doing the right things. So you relax and perform. After that you can't control anything anyway. It's out of your hands, so don't worry about it. Fear is just an illusion to me.

so i <333 that above i think it made A LOT A LOT OF SENSE. was pairing up with yuexi. haha walked as a group 1st. den was supposed to walk BACK alone. but unfortunately, i was scared despite that passage thingy. so yuexi was willing to like pair with me. so our plan was i walk in first, den she follow behind. i walk very very slow. and she walk very fast to catch up. and yes. our plan worked! hahahahaha. we held hands on the way back and sang the spongebob squarepants song on the way back! and that this little guiding light of mine song too! HAHA darli saw a wild boar. poor thing man. i bet the wildboar got driven away by our horrible singing. HAHAHA. so if yuexi wants to spongebob song, here it is:


Captain: Are you ready kids?
Kids: Aye-aye Captain.
Captain: I can't hear you...
Kids: Aye-Aye Captain!!
Captain: Oh! Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Absorbent and yellow and porous is he!
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: If nautical nonsense be something you wish...
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish!
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Ready?
EveryBody: SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants!

hhahaa you can download it from http://www.spongebobworld.com/themesong.htm


day 5. i <33333 the flying fox a lot a lot. i wished it would be faster and higher up. not much thrill man. the thrill factor is like 3/10. blehh. more excitement please! HAHA. :D and inverse tower sucked. i got pissed again. better control my anger properly man. me and carren didnt get to do it at all. cause our queue got cut like 5 times. and i really felt like slapping some people which i shall not mention here. that one particular person did really make me pissed so much during obs that i think without her around the whole obs for us would be BETTER man. haha. being mean. oh well. -flush MORE down the toilet bowl- so after that it was time to go home. got our certificates, and a lot more sharing, more that what we did for the past 4 days. sharing our experice, filling up feedback forms and stuff and geetting our wallets back to buy obs souvenior! HOHO. we were shopping deprived. heh. spent some time trying out sizes and design and stuff. and i bought a black razor and black graphic tee. yupps. so there. wilfred read us another passage called "you are special". unfortunately, i couldn't find it so i cant show it here. wait till i find it and i post it up k. it was UBER TOUCHING. i cried when i heard it. and yes. i cried on the boat back. sobs. we were back to civillisation. and on the bus we screamed like "HEY! the 1st CAR in 5 days!" "the 1st HDB flat in 5 whole days!" haha damn hilarious. so yeah.

my obs adventure has ended. and i missed it a lot a lot. i want to go for the overseas one. esp outward bound japan! OBJ. hahahaa. maybe i shall go back as an instructor. hahaha. all i need is a minimum a lvl cert!!


so what i've learnt in obs is something very very unforgetable. cant really learn in normal life time.


"something difficult? it'll take a while. something impossible? give it some time"
"you will not discover new oceans, unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore" <3
"bounded for adventure, changed for LIFE" OH I LOVE OBS. WHY CANT IT BE LONGERRR?!?! now im obs-sick. GAHH.

oh shitty poot i spent 2h on this post. and now it's time for dinnner at the casurina prata! tata folks!